This was at my birthday celebration. Ike was only about 2 weeks old.
One of our Family Home Evening parties with the whole family. It was in October and I had told them that it was the Halloween FHE where everyone dresses up. It wasn't. They were good sports about it and came in anyways. I loved their outfits. Zad and Ike were adorable dogs from
"Go, Dog, Go"
This is one of my most favorite pics of all time. He just needs a little motorcycle and a tat that says mom and dad.
I have seen my sweet birthson, Zadok, and his wonderful family several times a month since he was born. I have gone on vacation with them, I have had Zad spend the night at my house for several days while his momma and daddy went "out of town" (Scottsdale) for their anniversary, I have gone over for dinner, and just because they missed me! I have gone to a family wedding and they have come to our family parties and I have gone to the hospital with them and waited to find out why he wasn't feeling well.
I had the opportunity to be involved in the sealing of this precious angel baby to his mother and father. What a wonderful experience it was. Some of my family was able to be there as well. Most of my family, about 50-60 of them, were at Zadok's blessing. My brother-in-law, Kali, participated in the blessing.
The day I "interviewed" Steve and Angie, I had told them that I would like to see the baby when he was sealed and blessed, his baptism, when he was leaving for mission and then maybe when he got married. Never in ten million years did I expect to see him as often as I have. I have been so blessed through my adoption process and have truly felt their love for me.
Through the last, almost, two years, there have been many "coincidences" with my family and theirs. It has been said that there are no coincedences in adoption. I truly believe that. There are too many things that we have in common to be coincedences. These little treasures reassure me that placing Bubba for adoption was the right thing to do.
Finalization Day
Placement Night, February 2, 2009
This past week I had my first negative experience from a nay sayer of open adoption. He brought me to tears! I had never had anything negative said to me about adoption before and it really hurt. Let's just say that this man thinks he knows everything. In other words, he has the mental capacity of a 17 year old boy. When I went back in and sat down, I was thinking of all the different things I could say to him and call him. In the end, I just ignored him. I had to for the sake of my Christianity. I love how open my adoption is. It has tremendously with the pain and grief of the loss that I experienced. The loss being, me being a mother to my baby, Quinton Paul. I am so happy that Steve and Angie were able to find their baby, Zadok Paul.
Zad also became a BIG brother! Isaac James was born in June and is oh so loved by his brother. Not to mention his mommy and daddy!
I just love this pic of him. It was taken on Valentine's Day 2010.
As I try to prepare myself for this move, I have to keep telling myself that I can always come back and see this family that I so dearly love. People keep asking me what is going to happen, how am I going to deal with not seeing him, are you afraid?
I don't know, I don't know and YES!
But, I'll make it. The Lord wants me over in Hawaii right now and who am I to argue with his plan. He had the plan of adoption ready for Zad and I, and now, he has another plan.
To be continued...
